but i've heard it all before

now i'm needing something more
a promise is no good if you can't keep it
-Deana Carter Count Me In

Today was a beautiful fall day. It was almost too perfect. I understand that all you anti-cold weather people probably did not enjoy it. But, it was kind of a nice change of pace from shorts and t-shirts to sweaters and scarfs.

Today I also had a major realization. Literally. It was about my major. In my reluctance to leave the training room today, I realized that if I continue this course, in two weeks I will have taken my last sports medicine course ever. That hit me like a ton of bricks. I am absolutely not ready to quit athletic training. I love it so much!

So now I am praying, fiercely. I want nothing but God's will for my life. If that means admitting I was wrong about my future, then I am okay with that. I know that I still want to minister to youth. But thinking back on my days at SHS, Doc constantly ministered to the athletes (youth) at our school. I still very much believe that my heart lies with youth. I have no doubt that I will work with them forever. I am willing to admit that I missed the exact direction that I thought God was pointing me in. That's OK though.

So for now I am praying and seeking, much more carefully this time. Your prayers are appreciated.

So again, today was beautiful. God is really good. My friends and family are great. I am ridiculously blessed.