He is jealous for me

He loves like a hurricane
i am a tree

I feel like if the Beatles wrote Christian music, it would sound something like that. I am a walrus. I am a tree. Same thing right?

In all honesty, this song is probably changing my life. Just a few lines are on repeat in my head:

He is jealous for me...
and i realize just how beautiful you are and how great your affections are for me...
and i don't have time to maintain these regrets when i think about the way He loves us...

How insightful. I usually experience a lot of feelings and emotions in this song. Emotions are great. God created them to enhance our life experience. But my relationship with Christ is not based on emotions. It is not even based on faith. I know. Shocking. My relationship with Christ is based on facts. And there are quite a few of those in that song.

"Do not worship any other god, for the Lord, whose name is Jealous, is a jealous God." Numbers 34:14

"Give thanks to the God of gods. His love endures forever." Psalms 136:2

"Godly sorrow brings repentance that leads to salvation and leaves no regret..." 2 Cor. 7:10

These are Biblical truths. This is what my relationship with Christ is based on. Even when I don't feel Him. Even when my faith is small. Even when all the emotions I can muster up are anger, brokenness, denial, or sorrow. The fact is, My God loves me forever. He is jealous for my heart and my trust. And there is no regret when I am in relationship with Him.

when a nightmare finally does unfold

perspective is a lovely hand to hold

I love those lyrics. When the nightmares in your life come along, keep them in perspective. They probably aren't that big of a deal. Remember all those bad days I had? I don't. I genuinely can't even remember my emotions, feelings, or reasons for those bad days. What do I remember? Hockey games, Saturday nights at Tiger Stadium, reading in the grass.

Today went a lot better than planned. I got a low B on my Sociology test. I finished my writings for Biology only 30 minutes later than I normally go to bed. TNT was fantastic. It was one of those nights where God just speaks straight to your heart.

Lately I have been struggling with fear. I fear being alone. I fear the future. I fear not having any control. But faith can't exist alongside fear. If I have to pick one? FAITH!

I think tonight is my last night of stress this week. Nothing else is due that I can think of. There are no more tests. Now I get to play catch up. Yay!

There are so many thoughts going through my head right now. God is good. You can trust Him. He is jealous for you. He is jealous for your time. Your energy. Your faith. Your trust. All of you!

Reasons my friends are great:
-Candace "Instead of giving you money for your Auburn ticket, I got you a $15 Cane's gift card." You know me well dear.
-Will: "You need a walker?" His way of offering to walk me to the BCM.
-Meredith: "Does my room smell funny?" Glad to know I'm not the only one.
-Casey: "I hate to ruin your hopes and dreams, but you will probably not marry a Jonas brother." Blasphemy

you can have your own set of wings

with your feet on the ground you're a bird in flight
with your fist holding tight to the string of your kite

No joke, I am thinking about getting a kite. I saw some guys flying one on the parade grounds the other day and I was brought back to childhood. I want a cool one though, like in the shape of a dragon or something. With my luck, I'll ge this beautiful kite and the weather will turn grey and gross. It's worth a shot I guess.

Want to know something you spend a lot of time doing in college? Sitting on the ground. In hallways, outside, in the quad, anywhere. Right now, I am sitting in a hallway outside of a class. There is nothing abnormal about this either. We are just a bunch of hobos with laptops that can't bear to stand up for more than five minutes.

Family group was cancelled today. I believe this is God's way of telling me that I need to study for my test tomorrow. So that's the plan. I'm getting into super student mode. My only road blocks, Facebook and the World Series. Facebook is a chronic problem. The World Series will be over in a week or two.

The Yankees won last night. I get full bragging rights until we lose again. Which hopefully won't happen.

doorbell rings 'cause the party's here

when the water's high

when the weather's not so fair
when the well runs dry
who's gonna be there?

No, today I did not drive my car off the side of the road. I also did not find out who my friends are. I did, however, remember why I am the luckiest girl in the entire world.

I have amazing friends at LSU who care about me and even notice when I am gone for more than a day. :) I am amazed at how perfectly LSU fits into my life. It makes me wonder why I even bothered applying anywhere else?

I have an awesome family. My parents do not enjoy watching baseball games. What did we do last night? Watch my beloved Yankees get their butts kicked by the Angels. I have grandparents who will sit and listen to me talk about my life for an entire hour. And it's really not all that interesting.

My friends at home inspired this particular blog. You read a few weeks ago when I talked about not being able to actually come home. But I think I am finding my new place here. It is so great to see my high school friends and not have to be in the high school drama. Also, coming home to a small town kind of makes you feel like a rock star. It's pretty nice.

And to top it all off I have a God who adores me. A God who is writing a romantic, adventurous and, suspenseful comedy for my life. I can't wait to see what's next.

Please don't take this blog as bragging. I got lucky. The people in my life are incredible.

we may lose and we may win

but we'll never be here again
so open up, i'm climbing in

Do the Yankees really think the win will be more satisfying in New York? Is it really worth the trouble?

What is better than being home and watching baseball with the family? Nothing. Well, maybe seeing your best friends in this whole world. The trip up here though, less than desireable.

I wake up and rush to get ready. I am ready to go. Bathed, packed, and fed. However, after I get my Santa Claus bag of laundry and my bank robber duffel bag, I realize I am parked really far away. Sweet. After a long, awkward walk to the car, I'm ready to roll. Start the car, it's kind of shaky. You know how sometimes when a car idles, it sounds like it is struggling for life. That was mine. PS, the check engine light has been on. Forever. At this point, I am going home, no matter what.

My mom has a phobia of bridges. I don't. Or, I didn't. Until today, possibly. I was driving over the Mississippi bridge into Louisiana. Except that there was an excessively wide load at the front of the bridge. Because of this fact, I sat on this bridge for half an hour. That's not so bad. Except that it was pouring down rain with a tornado watch in effect. On top of that, I got to spend this half hour next to an 18-wheeler. Full of cows. Not only was this monstrosity shaking the entire bridge, it was stanking up my car!!

But now I am home. I am watching Dead Poets Society. I am going back to school tomorrow. Yay for LSU football!

your blood speaks a better word

than all the empty claims I've heard upon this earth
speaks righteousness for me

Just so you understand the true priorities of a college student, I just spent 20 minutes trying to post a link to this blog on Facebook. Did it work? Of course not.

Today was an emotional rollercoaster. It started out with exhaustion from a wonderful night of studying. Then it moved to panic when I realized I would not have time to study today before my test. At work it evolved into infuriated. I'm trying so hard to be Jesus in my office. Problem is, my boss. That's a whole other blog.

After work, I was pretty apathetic about Poli Sci. I mean, we don't have a test in there today! But that eventually changed into enthusiasm, as it always does in that class. Lunch made me feel rushed, and as I headed to the Health Center, I was distracted by my test. PS, I'm not sick. I am volunteering at the Health Center for Flu Week. The whole time I was there was a mix of anxious, relaxed, and antsy. The relaxed part came when Taylor Swift followed Miley Cyrus on the radio. Does it get much better?

Then I had to walk to my test: PURE DREAD. The whole time during the test, I was very concentrated and calmer than expected, almost a sense of, "Nothing I can do about it now."

The rest of the day is a blur. But, funny thing about my test, the answer to every multiple choice question was D. Well, at least I hope so. Sneaky trick Dr. Ingram. Very sneaky.

Things I learned Today:
-I have a wonderful friend in Ally George.
-The Yankees will not meet Joe Torre and the Dodgers in the World Series.
-Taco Bell tastes better when enjoyed with Jesus-flavored conversation.
-Tests are just tests and are only worth a limited amount of stress.
-My advisor doesn't think I'm cut out for college.

"Share with God's people in need. Practice hospitality." Romans 12:13

i'm thinking about other things i heard about today

all this week and tomorrow

and how these hands can create some better things a better ring

Life is confusing. One thing I am not confused about, studying. I have been studying for 4 hours. I can't even begin to describe the pounding in my brain. Biology is all I can think about. Hopefully, that sticks until around 2:30 tomorrow. After that, I don't ever want to think about cell structure and function again. Everything is made of cells. They do different stuff. Can we move on please?

Speaking of studying, I got to study in the quad with a friend today. Well, I got to hang out in the quad with a friend. Not a lot of studying was done on my part. But it was beautiful out and very enjoyable.

And to end the night, I submitted a story to mylifeisaverage.com. True story. This happened to me waiting in line for coffee.

"Today I was waiting in line behind a guy wearing an Alex Rodriguez jersey. I live in Louisiana so it's uncommon for me to run into fellow Yankees fans. I said, "I like your shirt." He replied by looking around secretively and then whispering in my ear, "I'm not really Alex Rodriguez. But don't tell anyone." I won't, undercover normal guy, I won't. MLIA

"For the word of God is living and active. Sharper than any double-edged sword, it penetrates even to dividing soul and spirit, joints and marrow; it judges the thoughts and attitudes of the heart." Hebrews 4:12

on the edge looking over

all i see is a four leaf clover
maybe a sign of things to come

Lately I have been struggling to hear the voice of God. You would think He's a big guy, He would make Himself heard more often. I was not going to put this story on the internet. I'm not sure what was holding me back. It didn't seem like a good idea. But, I have struggled with this idea for a long time (God hearing me and the other way around) that I have to imagine other people go through the same. So take this story as an encouragement. God is still speaking to us.

I woke up Sunday morning about 30 minutes before my alarm. It was quiet, so I decided to spend some time with God. I got past the usual, thanks for waking me up and daily bread stuff pretty early on and quickly dove into the heart stuff. I am wrestling with some issues and trying to let God have my whole heart again. That requires me to give up a lot of stuff and take a lot of steps into the unknown.

I began to pour my heart out to God but felt like it was splashing off the ceiling back onto me. my heart started to cry out accusations: " Why can't I hear you? Can you hear me? Does this even matter? Why aren't you answering me? "

"ARE YOU EVEN LISTENING?"

My alarm went off. I picked up my cell phone and went to turn it off. At the botton of my screen, said the word "Yes." This is not the first time my phone has said this. It is a routine option for when my alarm goes off. But at this moment, the Living God was using this to speak to me. He was telling me, "Yes. I do love you. I am listening. I do hear you. This does matter. You matter."

You might think this is weird, but don't take me for one of those people that take everything as a sign. I know sometimes things just happen. But i know in my heart of hearts that God spoke to me yesterday. In fact, he basically texted me. He knew where I was at and knew I needed to hear straight from Him.

Today was full on sunshine, good friends, and baseball. Does it get better than that? Really don't think so. Life is good. Even though the Yankees lost, I will press on.

Nice Things to do for you Temporarily Handicapped Friends:
-Drive them places.
-Find their crutches after they've been stolen.
-Kick their hurt leg. (that's a joke)
-Listen to their favorite song after they get out of the car.

"I tell you the truth, anyone who will not receive the Kingdom of God like a little child wil never enter it." Mark 10:15

buddy you're a boy make a big noise

playin' in the street gonna be a big man some day
you got mud on your face

Can I just tell you how much I love shuffle on iTunes? It never fails to crack me up.

I have figured out my schedule for next semester. It includes wonderful classes such as yoga and the history of jazz. I can't wait. Believe it or not, this semester is half over. I'm trying to decide whether or not to continue blogging after this semester. I'm thinking the answer is going to be a yes. I like to get my thoughts out in a tangible way. Even if they aren't thoughts about much at all.

Today I brought two of my friends to church with me. Of course it was one of those really intense nights full of people crying at the altar. Honestly, when has anyone visited a church and it wasn't an awkward service? I'll never forget my first visit to Gateway Cathedral when Pastor Jay announced his leaving. Even I cried! But they loved it. There is something about The Ring that really affects people. "He is really doing exactly what God wants him to do." Quote from my roommate about the pastor of that church.

I am falling head over heals for my Jesus. I am realizing his desire to fill every crack, void, gap, and emptiness in my heart. That is a lifechanging thing. All of a sudden, God isn't just in your Bible. He is in your office. He is walking down the street with you. It's amazing.

"God is a verb." Buckminster Fuller

do you know where your heart is?

ain't no sunshine when she's gone

it's not warm when she's away

ain't no sunshine when she's gone

Do you ever like to pretend like these songs are written about you? I do. I have no doubt in my mind that people like Bill Withers, Kenny Chesney, and the Jonas Brothers all had me in mind when they wrote these lyrics.

Today was one of those days that could not get any better. The weather was absolutely perfect. Sunshine. Mid 60's. A constant breeze. I just wanted to stay outside the entire day. Then I made a trip to the mall. Bought two new pairs of jeans, both of them the perfect fit. What could be better than that? Great jeans, great weather, great day.

Also, I am going to a hockey game tonight. Who's playing? No idea. Does it really matter? When was the last time I went to a hockey game? Third grade. For sure. I love the idea though.

I feel so much better though. I was planning on sleeping the whole weekend and just healing my ill self. Maybe it's the weekend. Maybe it's being done with mid terms. It could be that I met with my advisor and am no longer stressed about my schedule. Or maybe it's the perfect weather. Who knows? But I am in a good mood and I feel great.

"pain has a way of clipping our wings and keeping us from being able to fly... And if left unresolved for very long, you can almost forget that you were ever created to fly in the first place." William P. Young, "The Shack"

who taught the sun where to stand in the morning?

and who told the ocean you can only come this far?
who showed the moon where to hide 'til evening?

Reasons why being sick in college is no fun at all:
-The health center is in the most ridiculous corner of campus near.... nothing.
-You are in no mood to write an empirical research design.
-Your whole class knows you are gem-ridden. Especiall when you have to take a test.
-You have to go downstairs and outside for food that just makes you sicker.
-The bathroom is not within lunging distance.
-You probably don't own a thermometer.

It's official. I am sick. Perfect weekend though. No football. No plans.

My roommate has been laughing at how pitiful I am. I told her I'm going to use her toothbrush. I win. Really though. I am a walking mess of contagious. I don't touch anything unless absolutely necessary. Which is hard considering my entire life is made up of public stuff. Public bathrooms. Public dining hall. Public transportation. It's ridiculous.

So instead of partying it up in Maringouin this weekend, I'm sleeping and resting and studying. Which reminds me:

MID TERMS ARE OVER.

"So God created man in his own image, in the image of God he created him; male and female he created them." Genesis 1:27

i was supposed to have been a jesuit priest

or a naval academy grad
that was the way that my parents perceived me

This song makes me laugh. Although I don't think my parents would have minded if I applied to the naval academy. Apparently you can get married very quickly there.

Today I spent an hour in front of CEBA, a building on my campus, and handed out surveys. Word of advice, look up the definition of a service learning class before you enroll in one. They usually involve a lot of extra time that you just don't have. Our service learning project involves partnering with the Student Health Center and informing others about the flu. Fun stuff.

Back up. If you go to LSU you know how annoying Free Speech Alley is. It's a part of the sidewalk in the middle of campus where any organization can set up camp and harrass you with unwanted fliers and stress balls. Well, I hate Free Speech Alley. Today, I basically brough Free Speech Alley to the other side of campus.

Armed with a handful of surveys, pens, and "prizes" I headed to an outdoor eating area to harrass my fellow students. Same scenario about fifty times:

I approach an innocent student just sitting down to enjoy their lunch. In my sweetest I-hate-this job voice I ask "Do you have a minute to take a survey for my class?" They give me the, I-hate-you-but-feel-bad look. "Sure." I say "You get a prize for taking it. You get to pick from a pen, a deck of cards, or a hand sanitizer pen" in my I-know-this-is-retarded-voice. They laugh and say no thanks. Ten minutes later I get a pizza stained survey back. An hour of this. Pure torture.

Also, I think I am getting sick. I'm going to buy a thermometer ASAP. Symptoms so far: sore throat, stuffy/runny nose, nausea, exhaustion, headache. Possible illnesses: sinus problems, cold, flu (swine or otherwise), or mid-terms. Who really knows?

"Elijah was a man just like us. He prayed earnestly that it would not rain, and it did not rain on the land for three and a half years. Again he prayed, and the heavens gave rain, and the earth produced its crops." James 5:17-18

your love is relentless

and i'm glad for it
i'm glad for it

What is God teaching me lately? HUMILITY!

After hearing "The Kanye West Guide to Humility" at church a couple of weeks ago, I was interested. By the way, that was the actual title of the sermon. After hearing about it at Family Group this week, God's got my attention.

At some point this semester I stepped down from singing in the praise band. The dynamics weren't working and the band was way too big. God was able to use that as an example, to myself. Weird right? He is pointing out all the times I was humble and all the times (there are many more of these) that I wasn't humble.

For example, I have had two really great conversations with an agnostic friend lately. The frist was about a week ago. It was very shakey. I was caught off guard and did not feel like I had the words to say. The other conversation happened yesterday. It went great. I really felt like God was speaking through me.

What was the difference between these two conversations? Last week, I missed my quiet time. Yesterday, I spent around 30 minutes in the Word. That's the only change. Crazy right? What does this have to do with humility? Obviously, I am NOTHING without God. I have no words to speak. I can have no impact on the world, unless I am allowing God to impact me. Humility at its best.

You have no idea how much this is rocking my world. I am now intentionally looking for God in my world. It's amazing all the places He keeps showing up in.

"He is like a tree planted by streams of water, which yields its fruit in season and whose leaf does not wither..." Psalm 1:3

it's in the silences

the words you never say
i see it in your eyes

Right now, I am listening to my roommate speak Spanish. Today my family group mom, Rebecca, tried to teach me a worship song in Spanish. Yay for Spanish!

I think that Louisiana really needs to get its weather situation together. I can not even believe that the high was 93 on October 12. Really? I am so sick of sweating everywhere I go. It's really gross. Also, rain rain go away. It has just been miserable for a few days.

Question of the week: Why were mid-terms invented?
A. To torture students
B. To force you to drop out so that they don't have to pay your TOPPS anymore.
C. To prove that you actually learned something (whatever)
D. All of the above.
E. I'm dropping out.

I'm not telling you my choice because of the knowledge that my mother reads this blog and would be pained to know that I am no longer an enrolled student at LSU.

Really though, I only have one test and I am stressing. Majorly. It's honors. And it's an essay. And I have all the possible questions. But I am still freaking out. I also have a biology test next week. Thankfully (and I never thought I would say this) there is no football this week. I have all day Saturday to study for this test. Whether or not I will, whole different story.

"When you ask, you do not receive, because you ask with wrong motives, that you may spend what you get on your pleasures." James 4:3

everybody wants a little piece of my time

but still i put you at the end of the line
how it breaks my heart to cause you this pain

I slept until 1 today. No joke. I can't remember the last time I did that. More importantly, I can't remember why I don't do it more often. Don't judge me about sleeping late on Sundays, by the way. My church is on Sunday nights.

By the way, my church is incredible. It is such a strong community of believers that really just gets it. Not committees, no business meetings, no moving your letter. This is a church that is based on the Bible and how Christ has instructed us to live together in this world. Tonight our preacher compared God to William Wallace in Braveheart. Love it.

I avoided homework as much as possible today. Spent some time at Wal-Mart. That was a huge mistake. Never go to Wal-Mart hungry. You will come out with four different varieties of breakfast foods. When I wake up in the morning, I will have the option to eat a granola bar, rice cake, pop tart, cereal, or grits. I don't even like breakfast.

Upside to being the only Yankees fan within a trillion miles of here: you get to gloat when they make it to the ALCS. Also, you get to convert your roomie. My roommate spent Friday night watching the game and texting me scores because I was out. Yeap. She's coming around.

God is revealing Himself to me. He is reminding me of the times I was madly in love with Him. He is reminding me that I am the one who has changed, not Him. But He is my one and only and I am learning that every day. When I put a Bible verse down here, it might not have to do with the blog. It might just be something I read in my quiet time that I am processing and want to share with you. if you haven't noticed, I've been in James for quite awhile.

"But if you harbor bitter envy and selfish ambition in your hearts, do not boast about it or deny the truth." James 3:14

livin on a prayer

one, two, three, four!

i'm gettin' nuttin' for Christmas
'cause i ain't been nuttin' but bad

Today was the most fun I've had in awhile. It was Fall Fest in the quad. Which is pretty epic. Free food. Step show. And more free stuff. What's better than that? Oh yeah, we got out of class early for it. We heard the distant roar of the Tiger Band drumline headed our way early on in class. About 20 minuted into it, the Fight Song started, right outside our door. The proff looked at us and said "Just go." Fantastic.

Tonight was pretty sweet itself. I'm exhausted and about to go to bed. Only to wake up in about 3 hours for ESPN Gameday. Yes. It's that important.

Fun Things That Made Today:
-Getting crunk in the car all over BR
-Setting off Michael's car alarm. Oops.
-Seeing Will at Wal-Mart.
-Coming up with my first ESPN sign:
tigErs
defenSe
stoPs
# oNe
-Ruining my first ESPN sign.
-Playing MASH
-Role Models. Nuff said.
-Being branded as Andy's toy. (I know have ANDY written on the bottom of one of my shoes)

Awesome friends - check
Amazing memories - check
Gameday sign - well you see... what had happened was...

hello, my friend

we meet again
it's been awhile

Something I am learning lately. Don't make someone a priority when they make you an option. It's a big one. It is so hard to remind yourself that you are worth someone's whole self. Don't get me wrong, my husband will love, trust, and worship God more than me. That is a definite.

However, my husband will love me more than anyone else on this planet. There will be no confusion. No difficult decisions in which I am one of several options. I have been through that. It's not worth it. The man God has for me is for me.

I think that's so hard for us to deal with, especially in college. We are supposed to be finding the loves of our lives. Marriage is no longer a joke or a fantasy. It is a reality. What is he picks me? Then we can live happily ever after. Ok. But what if he doesn't? Where does that leave you? Do you wait for him to change his mind and realize you're the "one." If he changes his mind once, it won't be that hard for him to change it again. By the way, this works both ways, ladies.

My advice tonight is simple. Chase after God with everything you have. Your entire heart. Only when God has your whole heart can he give it to another person. Oh, you thought that you did that? That you gave your heart away to the love of your life? That's awfully risky isn't it? We are human. We do make mistakes. We often give our hearts to the wrong one.

But if your heart is in God's hands, He has the power to give it to the man of your dreams. And He will. He wants to see you fall in love. I like to think that God enjoys watching the romantic comedy that he is directing here on Earth.

teach my eyes to recognize you

teach my lips to glorify you
guide my feet so i can find you

Offer still stands. Guess the lyrics win fame and fortune.

I made a new friend this week. He wants to be a doctor. He's cute. He loves Jesus. anybody see where I am going with this?

Today the high was 98.6 degrees. I wish I was kidding. It's October. Get it together mother nature. I am sick and tired of walking to and from class with sweat dripping. It's gross and I can't believe it still feels like August.

Today was pretty bland. I failed a quiz. Funny story, it was the same quiz I failed earlier this week. Who thinks to study the information on a quiz they just took? But my biology professor, in his infinite wisdom, decided since we all failed the quiz on Monday, he should just give us the same quiz today. Jerk. I got all the same answers wrong. It's so dumb.

I love my life these days. Wouldn't trade it for the world.

i've been lonely

i've been waiting for you
i'm pretending

New game. If you can correctly guess the song that the lyrics above are from, you win a shout out in the blog. Remember, this thing is gonna be famous one day.

What is the worst thing that you have ever or will ever experience in your academic life? Group projects. Hands down. And in college, they are even worse. Working around the schedules of other students is such a pain in the butt. You would almost just rather do the entire thing yourself.

I am currently in the middle of two group projects. One is killing me softly. The other, not so much. The first project consist of myself, an agnostic member of the AHA, a buddhist weight-lifter, a Chinese exchange student who barely speaks English, and some guy named Raul who goes by Beto and has yet to contribute anything. It's hectic. Things are being done last minute. I am going crazy. The person who chose our topic has dropped of the face of the Earth. We are doomed.

My other group is a few really good students. All are really intelligent and outspoken. That's our only downfall. Everyone has their opinion. But we only have 7 slides to work with. Something's gotta give.

One good thing about group projects is the people you get to meet. Today I had a long talk with an agnostic student. A long, civilized talk. Most of it actually involved me listening and trying to find out where he is. God is at work. Maybe? Yes!

"remember this: Whoever turns a sinner from the error of his way will save him from death and cover a multitude of sins." James 5:20

Good shows to watch on TV (you have to be picky in college)
-American Idol
-Greek
-Modern Family
-Glee
-POST SEASON BASEBALL!

Lord i hope this day is good

i'm feeling empty
and misunderstood

Time management. That is the story of the day. How does a college freshman go to work from 8 to 10:15, class from 10:30 to 11:30, lunch from 11:30 to 12:30, class from 12:30 to 4:30, freshman vp meeting from 5:15 to 5:45, freshman praise band practice from 5:45 to 7:00, family group from 7 to 9, and still pass school? Hopefully we will find this out together.

To help myself in this endeavor, I am limiting myself to 10 minutes on Facebook a day. You heard me. I'm ending my addiction to fill it up with better things. Such as TAWG (time alone with God), exercise, and relationships. I am wasting so much of my life lost on the internet. There is so much I could be doing! Instead, I'm looking at pictures of my 6th grade boyfriend and trying to decide if he got cuter or not.

I am also writing out my schedule now. I have a calendar so I can see when all of my papers are due, when I have tests, and how long I have to study and such. I think visuals are the best. You have to be able to see everything laid out so you know where to start.

Also, about the song lyrics. They are in no way a reflection of my mood. I am just a big fan of shuffle on iTunes. You guys get whatever comes up.

I am working on this time thing because I miss my time with God. I am being reminded of the power of prayer. "... The prayer of a righteous man is powerful and effective." James 5:16

Why rain is no fun in college:
-Umbrellas add weight to your already heavy backpack.
-Even when it has stopped raining at LSU, our "shady oaks and broad magnolias" have a constant supply of water to drop in your face.
-Rainboots are cute. Not every day though.
-Frizzy hair is not in style this season.

you're the one that i want

you are the only one
ooh, ooh, ooh honey

Well, this weekend was fabulous. I have so many stories to tickle your fancy. I'll keep this short though. Also, I am recommitting myself to you guys. Every day. I promise.

Toy Story 1 and 2 was part of my weekend. Yes, myself and some other college freshman made it out to see the double feature. Us and about 343 small children. It was classically funny and mildly disappointing. I am convinced that Disney Real D is just an excuse to charge you more money for movies and make you wear stupid glasses.

I realized something this weekend that made me sort of kind of upset. You really can't go home. It won't be the home you left. At my church and high school I was in a weird limbo between "old regular" and "one time visitor." Don't get me wrong. Home will always be home. Now it's just a matter of finding myself and my new place in my old home.

Today I am struggling with joy for others. "Don't grumble against each other, brothers, or you will be judged. The Judge is standing at the door." James 5:9

Top Reasons to Go Home:
-Your mom does your laundry.
-You can do no wrong.
-Old friends make life sweeter.
-You miss your new friends and realize that you actually genuinely like them.
-There's no place like home.
-You come back and make cheesy movie references for fun. :)